"You're not crazy for leaving Just crazy for staying so long"

so its been a week since ive had time to sit down and express my feelings and man do i need it. lets start of with the good news, i have a job :) i work part time (for now) at walmart in the dairy department, and i finally got my higgins jersey :) bout freaking time!!!!!!! and the bad news, i probably blew it with the girl ive liked for two years. its just two years talking and twice hanging out, its crazy and im finding it hard  to hold on. i got the if its meant to be it will happen splur and that drove me crazy, cause its clearly not meant to be if we have been talking for two years and ive seen you twice i mean i know your busy but its driving me crazy cause i really like you and ive never said this but i feel like i like the girl i know through text and not in person, and thats silly. i mean i know i put myself down and i know i dont look like every other guy. but thats what makes me unique, hell we are all different if we were the same life would suck. i thought maybe me and you being so opposite would help but i think it hurt more then anything but oh well i guess. i got more to worry about. sorry this is pretty boring and only about mainly one thing. but ive been pondering these thoughts for a few hours and i needed to get it out cause if i dont i would explode... anyways thanks for reading!!

"You're just a fantsay girl it's an impossible world"

ever had that one person in your life that you would bend over backwards for, or if you could you would do anything to make them happy or say anything to try and make them happy. well i have that girl, ive liked her for two years and have no clue what to do. we have hung out twice in the two years we have talked *INSERT LAUGHTER HERE* and its annoying as hell but what can i do shes a busy girl. what really sucks is when your two best friends leave you, one moves away and the other has a girl friend he spends all his time with. sucks balls!!! but as i sit here and type this i wonder if anyone will feel bad for me and hope they dont cause as of this moment the only person who feels sorry for someone is me. because i have kinda felt like ive wasted my time on this girl, but i just cant get over her. and its not like she has said "we will never be together" when i ask she responds with a "you never know" not very awesome in my opinion but what do i know. this is coming from the guy who has no luck with women. not like thats what im all about now, i havent even seen a girl i like in months, and you know im okay with it cause women arnt everything to me right now, i mean yes i would love to be with this girl. but ever since i have graduated i have felt empty, i dont work, i dont do anything. i sit in my house and watch tv. i get told tyler why dont you go out? hang with some friends, well cause quite frankly i feel like i have none. i have one and thats about it. yes i have people i text, but i never see them. my life is in ruins. but im looking for that light at the end of the tunnel hopeing to get out of this slump and get back on the good side of life. thanks for reading

allow my to introduce myself

well this is the start of something new, not any of the old things i used to say, or type. this is meant to be a honest place where i can vent my feelings and not be judge. maybe show of a different side of me the world didnt know. or get some monkeys off my back and the negative thoughts out of my head. if you dont know already my name is tyler and im 18 and unemployed. im looking forward to putting my life in a new veiw and better perspective. anyways this is all i have to say now. thanks for reading!